Friday, January 29, 2010

Pardon My Zen

I've got to get this blogging situation under control. There was a time in my life where I would write something every single day. I found it to be tremendously cathartic. Looking back, however, it was a time in my life when I tremendously needed catharsis. Maybe that's the key? I just can't believe I haven't blogged since before the holidays.

I'm just not entirely sure what is happening to my time. I also think pregnancy is a time that really encourages hibernation. It really is an time to intuitively fold inward and be still; not only physically but also mentally and emotionally. I'm finding it a time focused on dreams of the future and reflections on the past. Its as though I'm looking at the entire timeline of my life in the midst of a shift in paradigm and all of the colors, which were once chaotic and overwhelming, have transformed and are now suddenly crystalline and beautiful. Don't get me wrong, its not as though I think we're going to have this baby and life will be nothing but bliss for the rest of our days - but I do have an inexplicable feeling of peace and clarity that I've really never known before. As if, for the first time, I am truly standing exactly where I am meant to be.

So, all that said, I'll try to be a little more vocal about the goings on here in SLC. Our holidays were quiet. It was our first time in the history of our lives staying at home together and not traveling, which was both wonderful and very strange. I will admit, there were aspects that I missed. Hunter's grandfather's fried chicken on Christmas eve and his family's house decorated to the hilt. I missed the perpetual laughter and inside jokes that I share with my brother because everyone else is too distracted to get it. I also missed the long car ride with DHB where we listen to an incredibly eclectic mix music and somehow end up with a conversation that flows without breaks for hours upon hours about whatever in the world comes to mind. But after the year that we have, we needed the rest. We spent most of the holiday in our pajamas, going to bed early and sleeping late. I cooked an absurd amount of food for two people and we walked around exploring a snow-covered Salt Lake City.
It's amazing to me how quickly time is flying by now. The holidays truly feel like they were an eternity ago. It was a sunny day here yesterday and I will admit, it kicked off a twinge of spring fever. I'm sure we're in for at least one more good snow here, but all in-all-its been a much more mild winter than I was expecting and seems to be tapering off more and more every day.

Anyway, I just wanted to write a brief note to say hello and remind you that we're still here. I think I may make some half-caf coffee tomorrow morning, which means I'll aim for blogging something a little more lighter and entertaining. I'm sure I can pull something together on DHB's new athletic endeavors or maybe the 'Best Belly Button Watch of 2010'.

Until then, have a magnificent Friday night. Make a point to go outside for at least a minute or two and take in this absolutely gorgeous full moon!

So very much love,